Dear Tumblr: Guess Who’s Bizzack?

Aight, so yea, I’m back. For my return, a letter to tumblr both apologizing and explaining why I disappeared. You and I had a nice love affair for a while there tumblr. You were a place of refuge for me. This past summer ended up bringing about a lot of unexpected turbulence in my life that consequently changed my life course. No exaggeration there either, I would dive into more detail but I’m not THAT reckless about what I publish on these here interwebs, siempre hay ojos mirando (there’s always eyes watching for my non Spanish speakers).

With that said, tumblr was a social network, that I kind of ended up using as a journal of sorts. Although some people I know have a tumblr account, they either 1. Don’t ever go on it or 2. Have no idea that my account exists. Let me quote myself here to really get this point across “This past summer ended up bringing about a lot of unexpected turbulence in my life that consequently changed my life course.” No fucking bullshit homies. When you go through something like that, there is SO much on your mind, SO much you want to let out and vent, but yet SO much that you don’t want to deal with anyone or any of their damn opinions and views. I never came on here and bitched about my situation, but instead tumblr was really a creative outlet. A place where I could write things knowing I didn’t have to worry about being judged or watched mainly because of the disconnect that not many people in my “circles” would ever see it and knowing if they did, well, I wouldn’t give a flying floating fuck. Nah mean?

I wrote about my random thoughts, I wrote a letter to myself, I wrote about a vivid dream I had, I just wrote and it felt good.

Besides writing, tumblr would get me lost in the countless re-blogged photos you could scroll through, the hilarious .gif images, the hot girl accounts and everything else. And well, I’m back now, because I kinda missed that shit. Although I’m not one that’s big into the zodiac isht, one thing I’ve always found that rang true about me as it pertained to my sign, was that Pisces were creative beings and spirits who are big dreamers, almost to a fault at times. Working a Monday-Friday job and spending my weekends intoxicated and not giving a shit about doing anything have kind of made me lose sight of how important it is for me to create. I’ve always liked to sketch and started randomly writing poetry and other short things in the 7th grade and no matter what it always madero feel good to create something. Completely make something solely by what’s in my head and nothing else.

But, I’m kind of ranting now so lemme chill. But I’m bizzack and expect some more writing from me. Until then, stay thirsty my friends

Thankful for common interets and passions that I share with people. I always say that my first encounters/conversations/connections with people are through one of my biggest passions, music, and I say this because it’s true. A few months ago a friend, who I haven’t even known for very long at all, approached me about contributing to a blog he had started. He told me he respected my taste in music and that’s why he approached me to do so. It took me a while to even start to think about contributing any posts but when I finally did, I couldn’t stop. I really just got hooked, and it’s become therapeutic to me in a way. Music already is my number one go to in terms of stress relief and getting involved in this has just added to that. Shout out to anyone and everyone that’s shown love to us at The Motiv (Wordpress / Tumblr / Twitter) and keep it locked as I turn my therapy into your entertainment.

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Why is it that I get a dope idea in my head, start writing, and then my mind just wanders? I’ll start and then want to keep going but just always get sidetracked. So frustrating man. Currently writing three different things and just been working on whichever fits my mood at the time but maybe that’s my problem. Too many cluttering thoughts in an already endlessly wandering mind = some serious ADD behavior. Welp, at least I started and finished this!

Look out for some enjoyable reading material soon.

Meek Mill “Amen feat. Drake” Official Video

Here’s the visual to one of the standout tracks from Meek Mill’s latest project, Dreamchasers: 2, with a few special cameos from his Club Paradise tour mates and more.  

In progress….

So, I’m in the middle of writing something that I’d like to eventually post and it’s the first time I’ve written something just because I’ve wanted to in a few years. I have to admit, I’m nervous as hell to actually post it (whenever I actually finish it) for people to potentially see and read. I mean, being honest with myself, in all reality only a handful of people may actually read it but it’s still weird for me to do it. To clue you in a little bit, I’m writing about one topic that I really have a passion for, music, and my relationship and experience with it. But with that said, I guess THIS will be my first ever blurb to the interwebs that wasn’t in a box that said “What’s on your mind?” or in another box that restricted me to 140 characters or less. Well, I guess that’s it for now….