It feels good to be able to say a lot of things nowadays. Life throws you some crazy curveballs sometimes, and often, you’re gonna swing and miss but you have to always be willing to step back up to bat. You never know when you’re gonna swing and knock one out of the park.
This Summer I’ve felt like I’ve went to hell and back, literally. My world got turned upside down and I thought there was no coming back from it. Although I haven’t fully recovered from these events, I have made progress. It was a long while of keeping to myself and not wanting to be a part of anything nor do anything. Wake up, go to work, workout, maybe eat and sleep is what made up most of my days. It’s kind of crazy though because although I looked at my workouts almost as punishment; that time with just me, my music, running and exercising became and is the best form of meditation for me. I’m blessed to always have loved ones around me, and work in a field that I am able to communicate with and make differences in peoples lives, but that ME time is essential to my peace of mind. Running with my headphones blaring and nothing but my route and music lyrics on my mind is great and really has helped me to be able to focus on more things than dwelling on my mistake filled past.
With all that said, let’s get back to the title of this post.
A few weeks back I talked about how I had an interview that I felt great about, and that great feeling was justified Monday afternoon when I got the official call that I would now be a full time social worker. This feels good for so many reasons. About six years ago, when I was still in high school, my plan was as follows:
1. Go to college in Boston and major in social work
2. Get my degree and move back home to New Haven, CT
3. Put that degree to use by helping those in the community that I grew up in and was given opportunity and attention from people who saw potential in me.
4. Ideally work for the city of New Haven being a social worker within a school.
It feels GOOD to be able to now say that I have done and am doing EVERY single one of the things on that list. It feels fuckin amazing to be able to say that. After not getting a job in my desired field for almost an entire year after college, I wasn’t too sure how things were going to work out but as they say, patience is a virtue. With the help, love, confidence, and most importantly hope that I am blessed to have from my family and friends I’m making progress on the goals I have set for myself, but I’m never going to get comfortable and feel satisfied.
However it does feel good to answer the question “What are you up to nowadays?” when I see old friends. It feels good to answer the question “Where are you working?” and be able to give a response with confidence in my voice, it feels good to know that my mother can brag about where her son is now working and what he’s doing, and it feels good to go to work everyday knowing that I will potentially be making a difference in the lives of 3-5 year old kids and their families. I look forward to more success through my hard work and dedication to being a better me and I hope everyone else does the same.
Until next time,
Stay thirsty my friends